Love update

So it's been several weeks as usual since my last entry, but it's sunday and I've got some free time so here's an update. So Valentine's night I didn't end up being able to hang out with Anna, so instead we ended up hanging out the next night instead. At the end of the night, I went in for the kiss, but she buried her head in my chest and said she didn't feel ready to kiss yet, and that she was too shy. Through future conversations, I've found out that the last few relationships she's been in everything seems to be going fine and moving toward marriage, but then she prays about it and recieves a pretty distinct no. She said she's not quire ready to recieve another no if that is what she's going to recieve about us, and she needs time to prepare herself for that. Of course I have the patience to wait for her, but now I'm afraid of waiting for a long time only to get a no from her. For the time being though, we're still holding hands, snuggling during movies, and going on walks together. I'm mostly okay with this at the moment, but the urgency to move things forward keeps tugging at the back of my mind. You have to think about marriage when you are dating someone, no matter what stage of the relationship you are currently in. I hate to refer to the old saying, but it pertains. Women, can't live with them, can't live without them. Good thing is that Anna's said she couldn't date anyone for more than a year before either marrying them or breaking up, so at least I'll have an answer by Christmas :)